“Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness. Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation) there is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, the Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from decision, raising in one’s favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no one could have dreamed would have come his way.”
W. H. Murray: “The Scottish Himalayan Expedition”
I came across the quote above while reading this morning from One Dharma¹ by Joseph Goldstein. As I ponder the concept of commitment as it relates to my personal path of development, I begin to wonder how much am I holding back regarding future visions and dreams for my life due to “hesitancy” and “the chance to draw back?” For I do not dream of ignorance that kills countless ideas and splendid plans. I dream, hope, and have faith that “all sorts of thing will occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred.” However, if I am honest with myself, I must admit that there are an abundance of possible opportunities that I may be missing due to a lack of commitment. I have my share of the usual diversionary tactics as we all seem to. I am fully committed to my personal and spiritual growth, fostering loving kindness, empathy, patience, tolerance, and peace, and supporting authentic and genuine healing and expression of myself and others. However, sometimes I think I can get hoodwinked by doubts, fears, insecurities, and so on as a means to avoid making a decision which requires commitment and perseverance to follow through with focus, action, and risk taking. Sometimes, holding to my inner and spiritual life as providing the guidance, direction, and nudge to take a leap of faith can leave me wondering: “how, where, and when do I simply just leap?” and “how do I know the difference between allowing an idea to ripen verses an absence of commitment?”
And so it is, that I decide to take a leap and to push myself into the world and opportunities of commitment by starting this blog! I hope (here comes the cord of fear, I’m already hesitant to fully commit!) no, really, I will post something new each week! So, please check back.
¹(One Dharma: The Emerging Western Buddhism. Copyright 2002 by Joseph Goldstein. Harper Collins, New York, NY.)