A Year to Live…. As I Do Now

A Year to Live…. As I Do Now

As I’ve mentioned in previous blogs, I’ve taken on an experiment based on A Year to Live by Stephen Levine. As I moved into the second month, I still found myself struggling to feel a deeper connection to imaging the reality: What if I only had one year to live? Then, this morning I realized what had more juice for me was the question: What if I only had one year to live as I do now? I realize that my reframe of the initial question may not seem like much. I think the difference lies in whether my life …

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A Year to Live: Starting Off

A Year to Live: Starting Off

As I mentioned in the previous blog, I recently started A Year to Live practice based on the book by Stephen Levine. It probably goes without saying that I’ve been asking myself “what if this was my last year to live?” I’ve asked myself a version of that question off and on throughout my life. The difference is that now I am trying to bring more depth to my responses and keep it at the forefront of my awareness on an ongoing basis. As a friend said, “bring more imagination” to the reality that it really could be our last …

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All Aboard!

All Aboard!

My life has been filled with what seems like a simultaneous wild and weirdly calming ride. I’ve experienced so many gifts, and I guess some might say hardships. But for me, when I look back on my life, I don’t consider the challenges as hardships. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve had plenty of difficulties dealing with what arises both externally and internally. Yet through it all, I’ve managed to stay committed to growth. Growth brings healing. Healing brings transformation, and for me, that brings peace and equanimity. I recently spent most of my summer and early fall helping my sister …

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Grieving for What Wasn’t

Grieving for What Wasn’t

Recently, I realized that I have been going through a subtle process of grieving. I say subtle because it’s not as if I experienced a more obvious and tangible loss. No one close to me died, my personal relationships seem to be doing well, and my life has been quite enjoyable and fulfilling. So, it took me a while to realize that what I was observing wasn’t just a mood. As the reality of grieving settled in, I began to examine: What was I grieving? What was the loss? Often, an aspect of grieving the loss of something – regardless …

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Is a Healthy Functioning Spiritual Community Just a Dream….. Probably

Is a Healthy Functioning Spiritual Community Just a Dream….. Probably

I find myself wondering: What do I really want in a community? Is there such a thing as a healthy functioning community – spiritual community in particular? Is the desire to be part of a healthy, respectful, and functioning community even realistic? Given that the previous statement seems idealistic, do the benefits of committing to an individual community outweigh the unwholesome consequences? To clarify, when I speak of committing to a spiritual community, I am referring to an organized group of lay people and like-minded practitioners not the actual path or teachings. I am, and I remain fully committed to …

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Hope and Joy

Hope and Joy

Sometimes we really do reap the rewards of good practice. I’m about to turn 56. To be honest, I have grown to simply accept the karma of my life that relates to self-reliance and lack of support. I figured: Oh well, I may as well keep working at it and trust that I am accomplishing more than my consciousness in this lifetime can grasp. Hopefully that’s true. Regardless, my intention is still the same: Less suffering, more peace and harmony. Then, to my complete surprise, something unexpected happened. Once again, I found myself in familiar territory as I attempted to …

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